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01:31am 17/03/2007
  If i said you were never going to see/hear/talk to me ever again, what would you think?  

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05:25pm 17/12/2006
mood: irritated
http://www.violentacres.com/archives/59/two-phrases-that-destroyed-american-culture I found this on a friend's page and i 150% agree, i suggest you read it and pass it on, it makes a lot of sense.

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The end? Who knows? Probably not. Something different though...   
11:38pm 05/06/2006
mood: scared
I'm worried... Everyone who knows me, I honestly might lose it this summer. I don't know to what extent, but its REALLY possible. If it happens I probably wont ever be the same. At least for a really really long time. There is only one person who might be able to pull me out of it, but she'll be gone for long time too. I wish we could face our problems together, but we can't, and its ok. Some things just dont work out the way you want, you just have to accept it and be happy with what you got (or what you had). I'll try to stay, I promise, my love...

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07:06pm 04/06/2006
mood: scared
Hello thar! Blogwise, I've fallen off the face of the earth. Life is really tough right now, and it's testing my sanity to the extremes EVERY day, so Im sorry about being not here. Anyways, so exhausted. Take care everyone.

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A quote from a peanut...   
09:40pm 23/04/2006
mood: optimistic
what's your opinion on love? you find it. it finds you. and then ta-da. theres your other half. you cant live without them. you cant let go. and you dont want to. its just there, and something you cant change unless something drastic happens (you can define drastic). youre so comfortable with the other person that you can do anything, and when youre with them its like time stops, and nothing else matters but staring into their eyes....now im really missing her...

I couldn't agree more. Now if only I could find it.

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06:23pm 07/04/2006
mood: content
^___^ Naps are nice.

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New record   
11:14am 05/04/2006
mood: accomplished
Hallow! Haven't blogged in a while neener. So last sunday was my birthday, it was ok for about an hour or so, otherwise it was pretty boring. I got a new mountain bike that hopefully is good enough quality that it wont break anytime soon, but its already doing something weird. So today i was bored and was in portland at like 7:30am and thought, "hey Im going to ride my bike home." So I did. Over the Sylvan hills and down through cedar hills and most of beaverton. It took about 3 hours to do, Im really happy about it. I know its a distance record for me. Anyways, I start school next week so go me! I hope that goes well to, along with life in general. Right now Im in the best overall mood and have the best outlook on life that Ive had in three years. Life seems to be treating me well, and with some luck and hard work, I hope it stays that way. Cheerio for now!

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Can you read it   
01:31pm 19/03/2006
  Al wanted me to post this its fun

i cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it dseno't mtaetr in waht oerdr the ltteres in a wrod are, the olny iproamtnt tihng is taht the frsit and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae.

The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it whotuit a pboerlm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Azanmig huh? yaeh and I awlyas tghuhot slpeling was ipmorantt!

weird huh? I could read it myself, could you?

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09:34pm 16/03/2006
mood: ^_^

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Good Times   
12:15pm 14/03/2006
mood: cheerful
Sorry I haven't been posting for anyone who actually reads this. Life is going really well right now for me even though I may still be a little nervous about messing up this chance I've gotten. I'm trying my hardest not to. I just got a call from my school today, I've been approved for re-enrollment. About time, they're only a week late letting me know lol. I can see why they want me to fill out all the forms again, but is getting a second physical two months later really nessisary!? I guess I have some stuff to occupy myself with again. Wish me luck ok? Here's to happiness, cheerio!

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12:32am 23/02/2006
mood: nostalgic
I think I've come to terms with the meaning of life today, and that fact that I dont think that we're supposed to know or grasp what it is. I'm just going to focus on the one thing that guides us that I can understand, the force that is so powerful it can make or break someone. It is the ultimate judge of a person: love. I will follow love, to wherever it takes me. At least i will have a sense of direction and purpose, and I wont have any regrets. Thanks Devin for making me question life more than ever, I hope I helped you make some sense of things yourself.

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01:28pm 19/02/2006
mood: excited
I noticed a good sign at work last night. I pulled an eight hour shift doing nothing but cooking caramel corn non-stop(my hand still smells a little burnt from the smoke, I'll never do that aginan). The sign was that my back didnt hurt me at all. It's still tender, but at least i know its healing. Also, I didn't tire at all during my shift which means my energy is coming back. I've also noticed my memory is starting to improve again also. I didn't notice how much of a strain the stress was on my body. I'm still stressing a bit, but its a different kind of stress now if that makes any sense... All in all I feel stronger now. Hear's to the future...

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12:49pm 13/02/2006
mood: loved
Damn i was pissed last night, oops. Things are better now though, I guess I need to vent anger sometimes. I guess its good i only vent in words and occasionally bashing inanimate objects. last night i smacked the computer because it was being REALLY slow (oddly enough it worked great afterwards) and didnt even notice i had split the skin over the bone at the base of my wrist until there was blood all over the mouse... oops lol. I feel like a new person today. I apologize for all the crap ive been spewing lately. Especially to devin, onca, and angie.

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07:46pm 12/02/2006
  I highly doubt that im going to attempt to contact anyone anytime soon. If you want to hear from me, you call me >_<. Im sick of running after people just to get screwed.  

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07:31pm 11/02/2006
mood: determined
She didn't show today. I didn't think I'd be angry. Shows how wrong she was about me. Now I'm worried about peanut. At least that's done with, my head is REALLY clear now and I can almost think straight.

My back hurts so much. I had to take the day off work for R&R in attempt to let it heal a bit. I'm happy that me and Devin have become friends, I always intended on saying hi, but I was always too shy. I suddenly can't stand my dad, I think he's going senile. Thats a taste of the thought swirling around in my head.

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05:57pm 10/02/2006
mood: anxious
Ever really cried your heart out?: yea
Ever cried yourself to sleep?: mhm
Ever cried on your friend's shoulder?: a handful of times...
Ever cried over the opposite sex?: absolutly
Do you cry when you get an injury?: hardly ever
Do certain songs make you cry?: maybe make me sad.

Are you a happy person?: I can be I swear.
What can make you happy?: certain nuts and fruits~_^
Do you wish you were happier?: It would help a little.
Is being happy overrated?: no
Can music make you happy?: Sometimes its one of the only things that can.

How many times have you had your heart broken?: Once maybe.
Have you ever loved someone so much that you'd die for them?: still do
Has anyone besides your family ever said 'i love you' to you?: yea

Who do you actually hate?: people who hate
Ever made a hit list?: no
Have you ever been on a hit list?: yeah
Are you a mean bully?:no, i stand for what i beleive in though.

Is your self-esteem extremely low?: in spurts it gets that way, right now no.
Do you believe in yourself?: Yeah
Are you good looking, do you deny you are? Yes and kinda
Do you wish you can be someone else?: never

[ ] done crack.
[ ] done opium.
[ ] done PCP.
[ ] done prescription narcotics for recreational purposes.
[ ] huffed air-duster.
[ ] been to a rave.
[ ] ridden in a taxi.
[x] jumped a ramp with a bike.
[x] been dumped.
[x] been used.
[x] shoplifted
[x] ran from the cops.
[ ] been in a room of your school that you could get suspended for being in
[ ] been fired
[ ] been kicked out of a movie theater.
[ ] snuck into a movie.
[ ] been in a fist fight.
[ ] got hit by a car
[x] fired a real gun.
[x] snuck out of the house.
[ ] been arrested.
[ ] gone in a mosh pit.
[x] stolen something from your school.
[ ] Celebrated New Year's in Times Square.
[ ] Gone on a blind date.
[x] Lied to a friend.
[ ] had a crush on a teacher
[ ] celebrated Mardi-Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] been to Europe.
[ ] been to Australia
[ ] been to Hawaii
[x] skipped school.
[ ] thrown up from drinking.
[x] played 'clue'.
[x] had a sleepover.
[x] gone ice skating.
[ ] been cheated on.
[ ] had your tonsils out.
[ ] have a car.
[x] driven a car.
[ ] Totaled a car.
[ ] flashed someone
[x] been flashed

[x] feel loved.
[x] feel lonely.
[x] feel happy.
[ ] hate yourself.
[ ] have a dog.
[x] sing along with your music.
[ ]Dance around your room in your underwear.
[ ] listen to Hawaiian Music.
[x] listen to rock
[x] listen to punk
[ ] listen to hip hop
[ ] listen to rap.
[ ] listen to country.
[ ] listen to reggae.
[x] listen to techno.
[x] listen to hardcore.
[ ] listen to pop.
[ ] listen to r&b.
[ ] listen to jazz.
[ ] listen to indie
[ ] listen to christian music
[x] listen to bands that can't be put into a category.
[x] have hobbies
[ ] skateboard.
[ ] Get good grades.
[ ] play an instrument
[x] have slippers.
[ ] wear boxers.
[ ] wear eyeliner.
[x] like the color blue.
[ ] like the color pink.
[ ] like the color red
[x] like the color green
[ ] like the color black
[ ] like the color purple
[x] like neon colors
[x] like to read
[x] like to write.
[ ] have long hair.
[ ] have medium length hair.
[x] have short hair.
[x] have a laptop.
[ ] have a pager.
[x] have a cellphone

ARE YOU (currently)
[x] bored.
[ ] happy.
[x] upset
[ ] talking to someone.
[ ] IMing someone.
[ ] scared to die.
[ ] buzzed
[ ] high
[ ] caffeinated
[ ] annoyed.
[x] hungry.
[x] thirsty.
[ ] on the phone.
[ ] in your room.
[ ] drinking something.
[ ] eating something.
[x] ticklish
[ ] listening to music

[ ] Hawaiian
[ ] brunette
[ ] a redhead
[ ] Samoan.
[ ] Philipino.
[ ] Korean.
[ ] French
[x] American
[ ] Italian
[ ] Black.
[ ] Mexican.
[ ] Asian
[ ] a Christian
[ ] a Muslim
[ ] Polish
[ ] Irish
[ ] German
[ ] Austrian
[ ] Other.
[ ] Norwegian
[x] No clue.
[ ] a Hindu
[ ] a scientologist
[x] agnostic
[x] atheist
[ ] catholic
[ ] satanist
[x] religiously confused (that is agnostic...)
[ ] short.
[ ] average
[x] tall.
[x] realistic
[ ] an emotional kid.

What is your current hair color?: blonde
Whats your natural color?: blonde
What color are your eyes?: blue/grey - blue/green
Current Piercings?: none
Straight Hair or Curly: straight

What shirt are you wearing?: my "I see dead people" halo shirt
Shorts: no
Shoes?: no
Necklaces: chinease zodiac, year of the rabit

Rock or rap: rich
Coffee or Hot Cocoa: cocoa
Wild Night out or Romantic Night in: Depends on my mood
Chocolate or Vanilla: mood again
Hummer or Sports Car: sports car w00t!
Bracelet or Necklace: necklace
History or Science: science
Sleep in or Early to rise: sleep in, i miss being able to wake up before dawn though...
Beach or Boardwalk: beach
Hoodie or Tee Shirt: tee shirt
Night or Day: night
High School or college: college
California or Florida: neither
Simple Plan or Good Charlotte: generic crap... they sound the same
Love at first sight or Learn to Love: both

Kissed the same Sex?: no
Hugged someone?: who do you think i am? some closet case, duh! im good at it too
Been on the phone until the sun came up?: yeah
Put a song on repeat for more than an hour?: all night
Got in a fight with someone?: yes :/

person you talked to in person?: devin/alex
person you talked to online?: devin
person you talked to on the phone?: devin/alex
drink?: mountain dew
laugh: last night probably
last time you had a shower?: this morning and in about 10 min

Do you like surveys: sometimes
What kind of shampoo do you use?: American Crew
Do you get along with your parents?: most of the time
Are you old enough to vote?: yea
Do you have mental breakdowns?: not until lately
Did you ever tell your parents you didn't feel good so you didn't have to go to school?: oh yea

-Current Mood: calm/nervous
-Current Music: none
-Current hair: the stuff thats on my head.
-Current Annoyance: my back
-Current Longing: to have spaz back
-Current Thing I Ought To Be Doing: writing
-Current Windows Open: none, 30mph winds aren't very compatible with open windows lol.
-Current desktop picture? something naugty, jk blank/black
-Current Favorite Music Artist?:
-Current Book: Sword of Truth, book III blood of the fold
-Current CD in stereo: none

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05:23pm 26/01/2006
  Ok, sorry but Im painfully bored.

1. Are you in love? Affraid to think about it.

2. How did you get the idea for your myspace name? T3h l33t m45t3r addresses me by it.

3. What time were you born? 8:04am

4. Has the death of a celebrity ever made you cry? Nope

5. What color underwear are you wearing? Um, black

6. Do you want a baby? Perhaps later in life.

7. What does your dad do for a living? Fixes shoes, woo.

8. What does your mom do for a living? Nothing, she's a loser.

9. What are your pet's name(s)? Friskey teh cat, Little Richard and betty the parakeets.

10. What do you want to be when you grew up? I dunno, loved.

11. What are the last 3 digits of your phone number? 859

12. What was the last concert you attended? Aussie Pink Floyd.

13. Who was with you? My dad, my sis, my bro and his friend Heidi.

14. What was the last movie you watched in a theater? Harry Potter 4

15. Who do you dislike most at this moment? I dunno, trying not to hate.

16. What are you craving right now? Anything sustaining

17. Did you dream last night? Oddly no.

18. What was the last TV show you watched? South Park last night.

19. What is your fave piece of jewelry? The ring Angie gave me^_^.
20. What is to the left of you? a wall

21. What was the last thing you ate? White Chocolate Chip Macadamia nut cookies.

22. Who is/are your best friend(s): Peanut and Spaz

23. Write a song lyric that's in your head? Trying not to focus on whats in my head.

24. Who last IMd you? Alex

25. Where is your significant other right now? The closest persons to being my significant others umm.. one i think is at home, and I dont have no clue on were the other is, i havent talked to them in a weekT_T.

26. Do you have a crush? I dunno.

27. What is his/her name?

28. How many ppl on your friends list have you made out with? 5 Maybe.

29. When was the last time you cut your hair? Two months ago.

30. Are you on any meds? No, never will be.

31. Do you have a mental disease? I have no clue.

32. What shirt are you wearing? New black long sleved button up shirt.

33. What color is your razor? Blue

34. How many people on your friends list have you had sex with? none, virgin yo.

35. What is your favorite frozen treat? Umm, ice cream...

36. How many tattoos do you have? None

37. What's your favorite store? Anzen, gifts from affar.

38. Are you thirsty? ya

39. Can you imagine yourself ever getting married? No, wouldn't work, fate is against me.

40. Who's someone you haven't seen in a while and miss? Peanut and spaz and Chelsea from gaston.

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12:51pm 08/01/2006
mood: calm
So, I guess I've been pretty neglagent about posting journals, sorry. So Here's whats going on in my life right now:

I'm almost back to school and am kinda dreading it. It'll be good for me, but I'm not going to like the loss of time to spend with my closer friends. Tomorrow I have to get a physical at 6:30pm (wtf?) and work and stuff. I can't remember my work schedual since it just changed back to my normal one. I'll post it when I get it memorized.

On tuesday the 17th I go back to school, 8am-3pm ick. My back really hurts right now, chels said my lower back looked swollen, but I'm not sure about that, perhaps I should check it out myself. My knee seems to be a little better, instead of aching constantly I just get sudden spurts of stabbing burning swelling tightness in them, thats better isn't it?

Me and my brother have been toying around with the idea of buying a Joe Brown franchise from our owner Marc. The place makes tons of money and we both know the business pretty well now. It would be cool owning our own business at 19 and 21.

Peanut, my heart goes out to you, although I don't know the details yet, I'm willing to do anything to help you ease the pain.
Chels, you're just crazy lol. But really, I hope your homework isn't giving you too much trouble, It sucks that your parents wont let you out till its done.
Everyone else, I still think of you, it's just that I'm kinda narrow minded sometime, you still mean lots to me ^_^.

Oh and btw, music from Chrono Trigger roxorz!

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02:10pm 15/12/2005
How you really say "I love you." by lenatheraven
...believe in true love?
Your hands sayI'm always here even if you have to reach for me.
Your eyes sayI can't dream anyone more beautiful.
Your hugs sayThis is where you are meant to be.
Your kisses sayI almost can't believe you love me.
Your body saysJust curl up next to me.
Your heart saysI love you.
Quiz created with MemeGen!

I know these quizes are just generated from random equations from what you typed in, but sometimes they are eerily accurate. Hmmm...

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11:07pm 11/12/2005
mood: sympathetic
W00t random pic, I dunno why I feel like posting this. Enjoy.


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